When you ask God for more of something like patience or faith, whew child He will answer. I have been praying for that mountain moving faith, that unwavering faith. I have been met with one hurdle after another. Really Poppa, I’d pray. I could almost hear Him say really daughter. In truth, I needed these faith building experiences so I can tell others I understand and truly get it because I’ve been where they are. Many times (a LOT of the time) when “church” people see you going through a sickness, a divorce, anything hard they start to whisper about you, they are certain you have committed some great sin that brought all of whatever you are going through upon yourself. I am so thankful we serve a God that knows hearts and minds, a God of compassion, grace, and mercy.
We may make bad decisions in life but that doesn’t mean God has poured out wrath upon us. I know rumors were swirling around my divorce, rumors that grew even bigger as I struggle to get back on my feet from the damage my marriage caused emotionally and financially. But God. It was Him that walked with me every step of the way. It was Him that caught my tears when those who I thought would be there with me through it grew silent. But God. He used every tear, every struggle, every feeling of loneliness, all of the emotional abuse I suffered for His glory so that He could use me to help other women in the same boat I was in. My boat didn’t capsize. It may have taken on water at times, but I didn’t drown through it all because other women needed someone who could say, I understand because I’ve been where you are.
God really started to speak to me about faith. Daughter, your faith is strong when believing and praying for other people, but how strong is your faith in Me for yourself. Wow. I had to really search my heart. Somewhere in me, I didn’t feel worthy. Lack of faith is a sin, without faith it is impossible to please God. I can’t stand in the gap praying and believing for others but not feeling worthy myself. Forgive me Poppa. Forgive me and heal those areas of my heart that caused it. Those areas that felt unlovable, unworthy of love. Heal me Poppa and make my faith even stronger than it’s ever been.
I got “f8ithgal” many years ago as I was reflecting on a Pastor that called me her faith girl. Man, my faith was unwavering. I prayed knowing and believing it would come to pass. I had no idea then the ministry He would be calling me into. I look at my life now, good decisions and terrible ones, all formed the woman I needed to be for a time such as this. Grace. God has showed me I need the same grace I give others, the grace He gives us all. My faith has been tested the last several months but it hasn’t broken, it’s grown stronger.
God has called me to be transparent in this journey. We don’t need men and women of God who hide behind closed doors and put on a front out in the open. He is calling the unqualified and qualifying them. Many of us are being forged through the fires! I’m not ashamed of where I’ve been, I’m thankful to be usable for God’s Kingdom.
Where does your faith stand? I was bleeding to death at one point and God just stopped the bleeding. Friends, I don’t know what you are believing Him for but what He did for me, He can do for you. I felt that deep in my spirit. The God of miracles of old is still doing them today. If your faith waivers even a little, pray for that unshakable faith. You may go through some hard things, but as you do you will find your faith growing stronger every day. 🦅 ~ Prophetess Michelle, #f8ithgal
“But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.” ~ Hebrews 11:6
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