When you’ve cried so many tears that no more come, you just sit in silence. When you don’t even know what to pray, you just sit there and mutter, “help me Poppa.” When you just feel like giving up, yet God is still there. I could feel the presence of the Holy Ghost as I sat, not even able to cry another tear. This storm was knocking the wind out of me, clearing people and things in its path. The winds of change were sweeping through my life and seemed to be taking my world away with them. Less of me and more you Father, help me…
When God set me on this path to my destiny, He told me my circle would be small and the path would get lonely. I have a tight yet awesome circle, but at times the loneliness is almost too much to bear. Poppa, why am I too much for the people I tend to care about the most. “Less of you and more of Me.” While not answering my question, that has rang through my spirit since a conversation I had on Sunday. I came to know the Lord at an early age, but I guess you could say I’m the prodigal daughter. I’ve wandered away several times and came back. This time the Lord got a hold of me and said I’m not letting go. After being baptized with the Holy Ghost, He set me on the path to my destiny and there is no turning back.
God took control and it forever changed me. My outlook changed, my appearance changed, the way I thought changed… it all had to change. “Less of you and more of me.” Poppa, people think I’m crazy because of how I communicate with You. They say You can’t speak to me that way. He brought me to Hebrews 13:8, “Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever.” How did He communicate with people in the Old Testament? In some Scriptures, He spoke directly to His servant. What He did then, He can still do today because He is the same yesterday, today, and forever. I’ve never heard God’s voice in an audible way, but I have heard Him in the stillness of my heart. How do I know it’s Him I hear? John 10:27, “My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me:” I am human, I tend to question what I’ve heard. “Poppa, show me I am hearing you correctly.” He confirms and re-confirms, He never leaves any room for doubt.
These storms will pass and give way to His will. Once again the storms are cleansing me, saturating the ground, removing anything that will hinder my walk. The rains are watering the ground the Lord has planted me in so that I will grow. Somethings have to be purged out of me creating a painful death to self. It is a process that must happen for me to grow, less of me and more of Him! I finally looked the Scripture up. John 3:30, “He must increase, but I must decrease.” This lonely, painful process is me decreasing so that my Father can increase within me. This must come to pass in order for me to fulfill my destiny, but I’m not as alone as I feel. My Poppa is watching over me and the Holy Ghost is walking with me every step of the way. 💛 ~ Chelle, #f8ithgal