The mind is a crazy thing. You can be all smiles, things moving along great and bam! Tears overwhelm you and you sit there like Poppa, where is this coming from? Old soul wounds, I’m still healing them. You were cut deep. It wasn’t a surface wound, it cut to your very core. He wounded your loving, giving, gentle spirit. I’m giving that back to you, replacing everything that was stolen. Healing mind and soul.
Tears are cleansing, but how much cleansing could one mind and soul need? I caught myself reverting to my old thinking, that is why the renewing of one’s mind is a daily thing especially when recovering from a narcissistic relationship. Romans 12:2, “And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.” Yes, after 6 years it was going to take time, a whole lot of God’s grace, and a daily renewing of my mind to heal me completely. Last weekend I took a little time to do me. No more hiding behind what other people wanted, it’s time to step out and step up. It’s past time to do what’s best for me.
God is healing me, but I must do my part. Oh that devil, he knows where to hit and how hard to bring on blows that almost transcend me back in time. But I have the Holy Ghost to quicken me to his tactics and help bring the Word back to remembrance, I am armed and ready. It doesn’t mean tears won’t overwhelm me at times, it doesn’t mean there won’t be moments where I am teetering on the past. It does mean I’m whole and healed through Jesus. I walk in that reassurance and face each day as it comes. 💛 ~ Chelle, #f8ithgal