From the Heart

The Bible tells us to “.. Love our enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them that despitefully use you, and persecute you,” Matthew 5:44 This one was going to take some work. I have spent at least the lat 8 months focusing on my relationship with God and healing my mind from the emotional and mental abuse done by past relationships. I thought I had an unbreakable fortress built around my heart. Not long ago the enemy used a man from high school to reach out to me and chip away at that fortress. He was cunning and breached the walls with all the pictures he shared of his daughters and grand baby. Knowing I can’t have children, he says, “I will share my daughters with you.” It was manipulation at its finest. I felt the Holy Spirit’s nudging to be cautious, but the enemy is persistent. I proceed, but I am praying the whole time, “Poppa, if this is You allow us to grow closer. If it is not You, show me his true colors and end it quickly.” Be careful what you pray for, God honors the prayers of His children.

The Lord starts to open my eyes as the true nature of the beast is revealed. “For nothing is secret, that shall not be made manifest; neither any thing hid, that shall not be known and come abroad.” Luke 8:17 Our normal picture routine of exchanging pictures was broken when I began to receive request for inappropriate pictures and then received one from him. It wasn’t long after, that the Lord did just as I prayed. He cut the head off the snake and ended it quickly. I was crying uncontrollably, where is this coming from Lord? He had breached the walls, but they had not came tumbling down. My heart was a little sad, but had not been left bleeding in my hands. Yet the tears were as if someone had died. I sobbed as if in complete despair and he really wasn’t worth it and had not even gained enough access to my heart to deserve it. It wasn’t him, it was the place it took me back to. I was angry, hurt, and ashamed that I had allowed it to happen. I felt stupid for even giving him access. When he wanted to change our FB relationship status a part of me screamed NO! He changed his so another part of me was okay with just going along. It wasn’t okay if any part of me had reservations. That nudging I had felt had been the Holy Spirit the entire time. Hind sight is 20/20.

This morning God said why are thou cast down daughter? “Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted within me? hope in God: for I shall yet praise him, who is the health of my countenance, and my God.” ~ Psalm 43:5 You have work to do for Me. These are stepping stones, We are using them to build your testimony for Kingdom work. There is no condemnation in Me and what the enemy meant for death, I am springing forth life. No more tears. Beauty for ashes. You are moving past this today. Now that is a Word from the Lord worth shouting about. I wanted to share this with you so that you know first and foremost always listen to that nudge from the Holy Spirit. Second, life is a process and sometimes we fall short. It’s okay. God showed me Jesus on the cross this morning. He reminded me that Jesus bore all of our shame with our sins. Once we turn that over to God for forgiveness, our slate is clean and it becomes a testimony to help someone else. I pray this blesses you today. 💛 ~ Chelle, #f8ithgal

“There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.” ~ Romans 8:1

“And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to [his] purpose.” ~ Romans 8:28

“To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified.” ~ Isaiah 61:3

“He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.” ~ John 7:38

“Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, [and] rivers in the desert.” ~ Isaiah 43:19

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