He Lives

I went out this morning and was greeted with a beautiful view of the sun shining through the trees. Jesus has risen and is alive. He lives to free us from the sin that this world tries to bind us to. He lives so that I don’t have to face life’s trials alone. He lives so that I can face whatever is thrown at me knowing He will hold me up when I can’t hold myself up. Yes, He lives. I ran into issues refilling my migraine medication, this has caused me to have them for days now. I have been overwhelmed and stressed to the point I cannot get through the days without breaking down into tears at least once. Poppa, I’m tired. My eyes are now sore from the headaches and dizziness has the world swirling around me. I’m not okay and that is okay for now. Jesus lives to lift me, some days even carry me, when I’m not okay. Yes, He lives.

I have my first appointment with a counselor since being home tomorrow. While it is okay to not be okay, it is not okay to stay there. I recognize I need help. Emotional abuse does damage that the eyes can’t see. A typical Dr. may not see signs of it on an X-ray, but the wounds are there. They go deeper, leaving gaping wounds that turn to scars. If your not careful scar tissue can form and attempt to suffocate the life right out of you. The memories, the mind games played start to affect you in ways you didn’t even realize were still there. Current relationships become guarded as you fear no one could love you or think you are just enough. So, getting help doesn’t make you weaker. No, it makes you stronger. It doesn’t mean your crazy. No, it means some truly crazy person manipulated your head and you are getting it right.

As I write this, the Lord brought back to my memory what He had showed me in a dream and showed a sister about me. My mind, the damage done is like a twisted and knotted rope. He’s unraveling that rope, smoothing out the twist, undoing the knots and the end result is beautiful. He lives (**** smiles ****). What are you facing? What are you going through? You aren’t alone, Jesus lives! His Holy Spirit lives within the believer. His presence is forever dwelling right within you. On those days you feel like your not okay, He’s already there holding you up. He knew you were going to have that not okay day before you had it. It’s okay to not be okay, lean into you Father during those times and let Him just be your Poppa! Happy Resurrection Day my friends. How awesome, He lives! 💛 ~ Chelle, #f8ithgal

Swimming through Life

Turning 40 something, I looked in the mirror at the worry lines on my face. I also noticed a thinner me, thinner than I’ve been in a very long time. I’m not where I want to be, but 60 pounds lighter than I started and I’ve kept that 60 pounds off. I took a selfie and studied the woman in the image. If you’d told the younger me the things I’d go through I probably would have laughed at you. Now here I am. I’d like to say I’d learned from my mistakes, but that heart of mine. It still takes me into troubled waters, but my Poppa never leaves me there. He gently lifts me out and draws me close to Him. I continue to learn from every inch of water I tread, I grow from the currents I fight, and I am able to share what I’ve been through as I wade out of each lake, river, or ocean that has challenged me. So many times the waters of life have threatened to overtake me, but my Poppa has never allowed me to drown in them. A lot of those waters I jumped into freely and others I was pulled in, but the weight of the situation was not allowed to pull me to the bottom. I’m not sure what waters you are treading or how you found yourself there. I don’t know the size of the body of water or the weights pulling on you, but I do know your God. None of it matters, reach up and He’ll extend His hand down. He will never allow the waters to overtake you. Thank you for swimming through the waters of life with me. 💛 ~ Chelle, #f8ithgal

“Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” Hebrews 13:5

April 2019 Chronological Bible Reading Schedule

April 1, Judges 6-7

April 2, Judges 8-9

April 3, Judges 10-12

April 4, Judges 13-15

April 5, Judges 16-18

April, 6, Judges 19-21

April 7, Ruth 1-4

April 8, 1 Samuel 1-3

April 9, 1 Samuel 4-8

April 10, 1 Samuel 9-12

April 11, 1 Samuel 13-14

April 12, 1 Samuel 15-17

April 13, 1 Samuel 18-20; Psalms 11, 59

April 14, 1 Samuel 21-24

April 15, Psalms 7, 27, 31, 34, 52

April 16, Psalms 56, 120, 140-142

April 17, 1 Samuel 25-27

April 18, Psalms 17, 35, 54, 63

April 19, 1 Samuel 28-31; Psalm 18

April 20, Psalms 121, 123-125, 128-130

April, 21, 2 Samuel 1-4

April 22, Psalms 6, 8-10, 14, 16, 19, 21

April 23, 1 Chronicles 1-2

April 24, Psalms 43-45, 49, 84-85, 87

April 25, 1 Chronicles 3-5

April 26, Psalms 73, 77-78

April 27, 1 Chronicles 6

April 28, Psalms 81, 88, 92-93

April 29, 1 Chronicles 7-10

April 30, Psalm 102-104

Keep Pressing

Fluffy girl down! I just completed my first treadmill workout in well over a year (mine had broke) and oh my goodness. My goal was 30 minutes/ 1 mile, I made it to 20 minutes and .86 miles. I was forced to stop when my body insisted on throwing up and an asthma attack kicking in, but not bad for my first time back at it! A goal is just that, a goal. I’ll get there and back to where I was. I’m still down 60 pounds from where I started, that came from hard work and self discipline. Now it’s time to focus and get over this hump I’ve been on, having a treadmill again is a huge step in that direction (thank you mom and Uncle Robert). Some things take time my friends, but don’t ever quit. Keep pressing and you will get where you want and where you are supposed to go. 💛 ~ Chelle, #f8ithgal