I didn’t realize how bad the depression had gotten until I cleaned my house yesterday. Goodness Poppa, how long had I been riding the waves of depression? I cleaned and cleaned, cleaning out the old to prepare for the new. The dates have been set for my move back to WV. I can’t help feeling a little like the prodigal daughter returning home. I left home in 2005, 15 years later I am returning. I am coming up to 2 years here in Colorado. Before even making my way back to God, He had told me this would be a place of healing for me. He’s still healing me, the last couple of weeks were proof of that. This morning cleansing tears are flowing as my Poppa teaches me to let go of things I thought I’d released over 7 months ago: hate, hurt, and bitterness, while He replaces them with love, healing, and His promises.
Poppa, I thought I’d already been down this road and moved past it. Now the painful words and what was done to me is bombarding my thoughts. I feel alone and I’m finding trust so very hard to do. Help me Poppa. Daughter, you can’t do this alone, but my grace is sufficient for you. Lean into me instead of running. I have paved the way before you. All you have to do is walk on it. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged. Your wounds are still gapping, allow me to heal them. The bleeding has stopped, but the wound is tender and open. The pain you are feeling is a healing pain, soon itching will set in as the wounds heal and excitement for what is ahead of you will take root. I’m bringing you out of the tears and into your destiny.
I was emotionally abused for years. I am learning it is okay to allow time (and more importantly God) to heal those wounds. Years of damage takes a little time to be unraveled and that’s okay. God is using every hurt, every deception, every tear to propel me into my destiny and to allow me to use those things to encourage others! Growth is not easy, but necessary on this path. Soul wounds. God is healing mine and He can do the same for you. We all have different paths to walk and different demons to conquer, but we all have Jesus interceding at the seat of His Father on our behalf. If we look to Him and keep our eyes fixed on Him we will come out pure gold. We are being refined, processed for the shine that is to follow. That is worth a praise shout! 💛 ~ Chelle, #f8ithgal
“ And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” ~ 2 Corinthians 12:9